Jesse Nesbitt

018 Occasionally Down (download mp3)

save my light in winter
there might be some more
we’re like the sea and its fog
conditions are right this time for us

where are you to go
turn me out for more
conscious receipt lags behind

we are occasionally down for you
we are occasionally down for you
don’t save myself for you

there’s my fallen ghost
where did all the time go
i see far and wide i see
this was a bad one for me

we are occasionally down for you
we are occasionally down  for you
don’t save myself for you

017 A Modern Muse (download mp3)

savor a timeless fantasy
you’re teasing me
a modern muse earns nothing
working toward honesty

hand on my heart
proud of dismay
what’s in my head
the only way

that’s mr. i’ll-do-something-to-you
to you
you parade ripped up stockings 
and bad attitude

i am enslaved now
half in the grave
i’m not so sure i understand
freedom anyway

i wanted more of you
i wanted more

i wanted more from you

but i know what remains

016 Hold Me Up (download mp3)

it’s hard to be understood
i’d still expect you to try
and i could give love away
but there is a shortage
so i would then have to retrace

the last time i used your name
i think i took it in vain
i don’t want to confuse
the present with the past again

hold me up
then let me down

it’s hard to give this a chance
when i don’t even know why you came

i was insanely good to you
before i even knew how to be
you didn’t need a thing from me

hold me up
then let me down

i don’t even know why you came

015 Gracious Fact Check (download mp3)

the hosts are all engaged
hormones displayed in case
you have to go before the toasts are made

contents less than the frame
emotions therein contained
hijacked by old spilled wine stains

talking without taking
a break for breathing
there’s no escape

now deceit returns
i’m lit enough to burn
a hole through your open window shades

you called them hours ago
side streets are always just as slow

you are are avoiding this submissiveness
but then, you never displayed
what you meant

and all i know is what i’ve been told
again and again

the life i lived did not exist

014 Asking Questions (download mp3)

who was that painter in the corner
who was that bastard in the doorway

i am not sure about people
looking through my window 

whose turn is it to speak now
i went last, so speak up
i am too drunk to come to
but there isn’t much to come to

now who’s asking questions
who was taking pictures
i won’t ask for nothing
i was asking something

who needs who for comfort
i’ll bury your past with comfort

013 Habit is Home (download mp3)

locking the doors when i’m inside
the place is slow
waging a war that’s been postponed
time is a lie

shave my finger to the bone,
bring me a head and let it go

i was just checking in again
on you, where were you, were you
electrostatic motion moves
you close when habit is home

the rows are not always straight,
leave it alone
tastelessly shouting out the lines,
you are mine

you’re faking what i’m testing for
deny, but you always will know
the shadows hiding in your eyes
all fear when habit comes home

the walls are closing in on me

012 Anonymity (download mp3)

you are notably excited
i am regrettably restrained
taking back those thoughts i had about you
the ones i use to balance out
the reasons i should doubt you

postcards and letters sent
found their way to where they still sit
something with you in my mind is ready
the remainder is all busy not forgetting

constantly saying what i mean
destroy my drive to make a broken speech
freudian miscommunications
with every slip i’m sharing the deepest depravations

want to say you’re funny when your drunk
anonymously showing syllables to your tongue
the fictional depiction of my final destination
is aggregated from a life of non-participation

i don’t mind if we’re battling for nothing
your trench is deep and i will not stop charging
fall for every trap that i cannot fight through
but i’m the one i always seem to lie to

011 All Mystic (download mp3)

breathing in, i’m ready
to fight your pride again

and reunite with hidden views

i’m going down
i’m going down
i’m going down

disable the unchained
i’m not afraid
running after a way to
let it go

i’m going down
i’m going down
i’m going down

a shadow is cast from the weather balloon
expendable observations i made about you

transmitters are pushing a faint pulse
discernibly there but
presence implies that you’re a ghost

i’m going down
i’m going down
i’m going down

010 Gasoline Filled Heart (download mp3)

what would you do, if i were surprised
when all your news is filled with old lies

so i could kill, so it could rain, so i can’t sleep
grown over with grass, drying out fast,  
with all the fallen leaves

i’ve been ok

look to extend what this all means
fill all these hearts with gasoline

i’ve been your age
and i don’t rearrange it all
something is wrong, follow along
and keep a perfect beat

the sun is down up gone

i’m still around
say what you came to say

009 In Lieu Of (download mp3)

fade in my last request
move back and forth again

put partitions up against the walls we share
everything i thought i had was lost when i

said it wrong
i always say it wrong

there is nothing in this world for you
there is nothing in this world for you

the lines are echoing the road
i’m asleep at the wheel

you really didn’t know,
you really didn’t know,
did you
what i was saying

there is nothing in this world for you

007 Optimistic (download mp3)

i’m headed home on a road
i don’t know

just where it ends
i get optimistic

feigning my safety, i am alive
adequately arrived

i’m something outside myself
deep within

it’s all i get i get in i get out

fill in the sequence add something to it
this is the best it gets

your questions and answers
sound just the same anymore
all of the praise ignored

what are we running from
all these triggers fire the same gun

put it down and pick your head up

i know your fate and i say
the other side of pain is right there

that when it’s over
when you see the rain as beautiful
washing it all away

008 The Christening (download mp3)

don’t / say you’re marked
before dark even if it’s true
hark / queens and kings
most everything means something even if it isn’t true

and i’ll be king someday
my queen was never meant to stay
push off from the shore
ill prepared and hoping for more

so / look me down once more
we’re all tangled souls with little more to give
come / hold it in
it’s something that i started but am forcing you to end

i’d rather let the sails work than row
but don’t believe them when they say there’s hope

you hollowed yourself out like a crescent moon
and miracles are meaningless to you

i thought you said that help was on the way
gathering round just to run astray
where are we going, where are we now
i don’t want to be the one to choose
i don’t want to be the one to choose

i don’t want to be the one to choose

005 Taken Time (download mp3)

You’ll get sick of everything in time
you can’t stop anything
it’s a headache to be the only one
against which everything else goes

let’s take our time
let’s take our time

you’ve said “no man i can believe”
yet it’s you who lied this time
there’s nothing worth revisiting
it was worth making me cry

let’s take it slow
let’s take it slow
open my eyes

and your gone
and your gone

you’ll get sick of everything
that’s how it goes

006 Another Happy Ending (download mp3)

there’s a happy ending
to our awful beginning
but don’t read ahead
it won’t make any sense

so don’t lose hope
i known that you’re broke
and i’m all spent

how could i do that
hate it when you ask  
i lie, i cheat, i steal
but you’re the threat that’s real

you’re a lethal dose
when you use those
brown and gold eyes

here we go down this path again
all i said is i don’t mind to play along
i think you read me wrong

fearing loss at every step
so i’ll ask again
how could you
love me like you do

i know i should know
you can tell that i don’t
so i’m all alone

004 Bottle and Poem (download mp3)

You lost your place, but no one noticed anything
I won’t tell your family where we found you the other day

who are you when you are all alone, a bottle and a poem
on your own, spilling the truth all over you

Still you’re walking away and aimed at a place that does not exist
Far from the meaning of near
so do what you want and i will l do the same

she is stating her fears, condescendingly
using no real detail, painting hell, delicately
But I love, and I love, and i love
But I love, and I love, and i love

pulling so forcefully to break your heart free
maybe you’ll feel something
when i do what i want and say it’s all

The Same

We’ll always stay the same